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Ur brain is bigger than ur mouth.. just let it working..

And thats it. God create human so perfectly.
Dont get it wrong. Dont try to use your mouth too excessive than your brain. Just dont:))

Going Nowhere

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"-- and you're never gonna get me with the diamond ring"
Begitu selesai aku berbicara, tiba-tiba ia membuang xbox ke lantai dengan kasar. Dan oh, jangan luapakan dengan wajahnya yang mengerut, alis menyatu kebawah dan bibir yang mengerucut. Jika saja dulu aku tidak emosi, mungkin anakku dimasa depan akan sangat menggemaskan sepertinya.
"What is so important about that? You want me or money?"
Aku melipat kedua tangan didepan dada "then why should be xbox?! You cuddling with that thing like twenty four seven! And you dont even have a time for me. And hey, i have money or diamond or whatever you think. I have it."
Aku tahu aku berbicara tidak jelas sekali saat itu. Harusnya, seperti novel-novel roman yang kulihat bahwa sang pacar harusnya saling mengerti akan sifatnya masing-masing.
Tapi tidak dengan kita.
Dulu aku bisa menghakimimu akan ketidakpedulianmu padaku. Tapi sekarang, aku tahu kita sama-sama tidak mengerti
"Fine, Ms have-it-all. Then what?! You can go now, you have everything that you want right? Leave."
Aku tidak tahu kenapa kau yang harusnya marah. Padahal aku banyak melihat pendapat-pendapat orang bahwa bagaimanapun sepasang kekasih bertengkar, sudah pasti sang wanita yang selalu marah berkoar dan sang lelaki harus merasa bersalah
Apakah kita bertukar kelamin? Bodoh, luapakan itu.
"One thing you shoulda know, i cant have you"
Dan dengan begitu aku pergi. Meninggalkan apartemenmu yang tak kalah dari kapal pecah. Jika saja kau tidak seperti ini sudah pasti aku akan merubahnya menjadi kamar yang layak pakai.
oh, satu hal yang harus kau tahu; sampai sekarang aku masih berharap kau memanggilku dengan nama belakangmu. Bukan Ms. Know-it-all sialan itu.
Ah, terlalu muda dan terlalu banyak mengambil kesempatan yang tak jelas membuat kita menjadi seperti ini. Tak ada yang bisa menahan emosi.
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"And then, the girl moved to her dream-place, Paris. She got a boyfriend who called her Ms. All American, with the bad first sight--like the tv series you watch, theyre always fighting like cat and dog. But then they finnaly in love each other and the boy change her lastname into his lastname. Live with one daughter which now holding her hands and stared at me with the curious but scared at the same time. The end. Uh?"
Sosok yang beridiri didepanku ini mengakhiri cerita kehidupan bodohku dengan alis mata bodohnya yang naik-turun itu.
"Gosh" aku tidak mengerti lagi. Maksudku, bagaimana bisa cinta bodohmu semasa remaja kembali berdiri mencegatmu dan lalu langsung bercerita akan kehidupanmu. Hei bukankah harusnya kita yang meneceritakan kehidupan kita kepada (sebut saja) teman lama yang sudah lama tak bertemu?
Sekali lagi, kita memang diluar dari garis kebiasaan orang lain.
Apakah ini masih berlanjut? Aku bahkan tidak akan bisa bersamamu lagi. "Are you an paparazzi or what? How can you know all of it?!"
"I know everything about you" ujarnya dengan menampilkan senyum manisnya itu. Ah, jangan lupakan lesung pipi yang menawan itu. Mata hijaunya turun kebawah menatap gadis kecil yang berada disebelahku. Ia berjongkok menyamakan tingginya dengan gadis kecil ini dan mengusap pipi halusnya. "Unfortunately, i dont know about her. So tell me, how do you do, little princess?"
Bisa kulihat anakku bersembunyi dibalik tubuhku. Tak bisa dimengerti kenapa aku memiliki anak pemalu disaat kedua orang tuanya selalu memalukan seperti ini.
"Well its Mandy, she 's just starring elementary school here. Dont get it wrong. She's kind of shyly"
"I see"
Sejenak hanya diam yang menemani kami dipertemuan tak terduga ini.
"So, how's your life?"
"Me?  Its flat as hell. Since you leaving"
Sial.
Kenapa ia masih mengungkit itu lagi?!
Seperti mengerti raut wajah tak enakku, ia memecahkan keheningan denga tertawa dan ahh lesung pipinya Tuhan..
"Why'd so serious? No.. im not that poor" benarkah? Jadi hanya aku yang menyedihkan setelah berakhirnya kisah kami dulu? "Forget it. Im still alone, by the way. Didint think that i will get a girl for now"
"You lying uh, i know there was very long queue in the build called like 'who want to be Harry Styles girlfriend' out there"
"Hah. No, silly" ia menarik nafas pelan dan seketika senyum menawan tadi hilang "im still stuck in our moment"
Aku menegang
"It was always you"

Dengan begitu ia pergi meninggalkan aku.
"Mom?"
Ah, maksudku meninggalkan kami.

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"Im the sober's one.. yet too drunk"

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Lol that -dont- tittle is sign that i just posting some random thing n u dont need to read it..eum, maybe u should eh no eh nah lmao

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Mereka yang tidak mengerti kediamanmu, pastilah tak akan mengerti kata-katamu

Red Love - Pia Mia

I must be dreaming
You fit so perfect
I wanna give myself away
You must be worth it
Give you my touch
You take me higher and above
And then you turn
And leave me here with nothing

Red love, red, red love, ohhh
Red love, red, red love

All that I wanted
Was for the first one to care
You kept your secrets
And told me life was unfair
Gave you my trust
You had me right there in your clutch
I felt the rush
Then you just looked away like

Red love, red, red love,
Red love, red, red love

You didn't even turn around to look back
Didn't even stay to watch me cry
Now when I turn around to look back
Everything you said was a lie
Oh, baby baby

Red love, red, red love,
Red love, red, red love

Guess I was dreaming
I wore my heart on my sleeve
And when the rain came pouring down
You were so far out of reach
But I'm waking up
Sometimes enough is enough
If I can never get it back
At least I gave it all for

Red love, red, red love, ohhh
Red love, red, red love (red love)

You didn't even turn around to look back
Didn't even stay to watch me cry
Now when I turn around to look back
Everything you said was a lie
Oh, baby baby

Red love, red, red love,
Red love, red, red love

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I was too drunk..
I was too comfort to live this life
I was too drunk
I was always acting like ive deal with this
I was too drunk
I was pretend that this is the real life,
Real happines
I was too drunk
I spend my laugh for those fakers
I was too drunk
One more. One more glass. More..
I cant handle without those waters

But then i woke up sweating from the dream
with the different kinds of feeling
i look arround and find this real..
This real..
Then,
Im realize,
Im wasting my golden life with drink and drunk people

And i,
I just want to sober..

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Whatevaah i dont give a damn with grammar k lmao
#ripenglish 4evah

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Sometime.. or many time i maybe youve been thinking of this;
How desperately you wish whatever you want, you hope, you expected is really came out to ur life
And unfortunately; it'll never really come

Then you just thought am is just you who always being like that? This is misarable ever.
And you hate it.

You trying to hide those dissapoint and make a brand new life-- or i called it new hope(less)
And guess, just like the old time. God wont make it came true.

You running frustated; how the hell god give us a brain and heart which the benefit is to let us thinking, feeling, hoping, dreaming, expecting..
But he never let our brain&heart-works being real?
Like are he made us just to playing with us like we playing The Sims?

Gosh, im so accursed

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Bukanlah hari yang tepat untuk melekukan garis bibir kebawah
Apalagi hari untuk membagi pikirannya antara menghayal dan melamun
Bodohnya, dua pikiran itu tetap saja menghasilkan satu
Satu harapan yang mustahil

Bukanlah hari yang pantas untuk membunuh benak logika dengan harapan yang menggebu itu
Ditambah dengan segala ketidakmungkinan yang tersuguh didepan matanya
Apa?
Apalagi?
Kau, diam saja.
Tidak perlu menghidupkan fungsi otak dan hatimu yang bodoh itu.
Jalankan saja cerita hidup yang dikarang Tuhan ini.

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If dreaming can make you die, i might be dead a long time ago
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